No I could NEVER raise a clone of my child. Why wouldn’t I raise a clone of my child, you ask? I have many reasons. However my strongest feeling is that no matter what, it would not be the same child. This is an area that scientists should have never explored. It isn’t fair to the heart to meddle in such ways. I have experienced the feeling of losing a child, and I have discovered many things about myself because of the experience I endured.

 I lost my son in a Motor vehicle accident, when I was 9 months pregnant. I had been to the doctor’s that same day and discovered that i was dilated one centimeter. So, I was an excited mommy and I rode in a car to pick up my crib a few towns away, and on the way home my 16 year old sister was driving and  took a curve too fast. We flipped and went into the ditch, she was killed as was my baby boy.

I will never forget the feeling of waking in a hospital and knowing the very distinct harsh feeling of emptiness and angst. I knew before anyone could say a word; that I was the only survivor. I would never wish that feeling on anyone. I could never raise a clone of my son, and I am positive my mother could never raise one of my sister. The days after the accident, my life was hard, and painful. Everything I saw reminded me of the baby and my sister. I am not sure how I survived, and if I had been offered then the chance to have them back; but knowing it was a clone, I couldn’t do it. It would never be the same. I knew my sister, and even if she had a twin it would remind me of her, but it would never be her. You have your own spirit, and you can recreate the same frame but the inner workings, the truly deep can never be duplicated. It is a very sad thing to lose your child, but would be further painful to watch every day as a clone grows, when you know that that child was dead. It’s just not worth the further pain you or that child would undoubtedly suffer.

The way I see it; life can be really shitty and unfair, but loss teaches you many things. And, enjoying the life of my now 7 year old daughter is the greastest joy I possess. And it took me losing my son to know that value; don’t let that be you.